*Sigh*

i dont even know what to say.
it has been FOREVER since i have posted and i know that. i was really planning on writing while joe is on his trip (he left monday and will get home wednesday night- short but i still hate that he is gone). and i REALLY want to share my trip because it was FABULOUS!!!!! i LOVED every second of it!!! but life has made it so i am far to exhausted to even soak in the tub.... there is always thurday night right?
let me tell you why.....
we got home last friday, then we had to play parents/catch- up onh saturday. i had a lesson to prepare and a fireside to make sure all was ready for......
sunday i was home for 2 hours. church 9-1 and then i was 'stopped' and we didnt get home till about 2:45 (remember it takes 20 minutes to get home). i ate, took a nap and then left again at 5 to pick up people to get to BYC at 6 and then the fireside was at 7. ended a bit after 8 and i helped clean up, and i dropped people off, and i got home about 10. i crashed.
monday i had a dr. appointment where i was told i was not to vacuum anymore because it gives me contractions which is bad because i am only 25 weeks. and i am supposed to 'take it easy and be careful'. i then go home and catch up some more.
tuesday- jerra had speech therapy and i had visiting teacher come over and they always stay for like 1.5 hours. which is fine- Aunt Nita and Patricia- i love 'em and they can stay as long as they want. but i still had laundry and YW activity stuff to catch up on still because we had an activity to make sure would be ok on wednesday. dinner and again, i crashed.
wednesday- church day. the activity had to be changed last minute so i had to iron out the details for that, and then i spent time with my kids. we desperately missed eachother and they were DEMANDING my attention. i had to leave right when joe got home at 5:30 cuz i had a bunch of errand i had to run in MP- so i dropped of the recycling and i got myself some dinner and i got treats for that night- went to church had a good activity- temple prep games cuz saturday was the youth temple trip. then i went to walmart to do some grocery shopping, i got home at about 10:45 and passed out.
thurday i went longview. jerra desperately needed warmer shoes and church shoes and claysen needed a suit. i did a very nice job shopping and got 2 pairs of shoes 3 pants, 2 shirts, a sweater, a suit, and 2 shirts and a tie. all for only $115. i am proud of myself, anyway- that took all day, and then i made a great dinner and was dead on my feet at 10:30.
friday- blogging was on my list of things to do, i was planning on doing it during nap, but i felt so ill i was in bed most the morning. i then decided that it was in my head and i just needed to get moving. well, the baby boy of mine decided to sit somehow that caused me so much pain that i couldnt sit or walk. it was awful, if i wiggled my toes just right sharp shooting pains. so joseph decided that i was not to get out of bed. he came home and was super dad, again. i am so lucky- he is fabulous. that also ment that i was not allowed to go to the temple- joseph threatened to tie me to the bed...... i didnt even go to the football game- joe took the kids and they had a blast. so i laid in bed, completly exhausted and pained. it was pathetic. i did try to call the doctor at about 3:30ish, but they closed at noon on fridays.
satrday. bed. bored. saw EVERYTHING that needed to be done, and remembered everything i had forgotten, and went nuts. joesph did get hte tile set, now all it needs is grout and i have master bathroom floor!!!!!!! anyway- by the end of the day i was feeling somewhat normal, and caught up in life and ready to be mobile. but i was exhausted at the same time and was asleep by 10.
sunday- i had correlation at 8:30. i left my house at 8 si- was at church till 1:15 ( i was shocked it was so fast to get out!) and i was determined to keep the day family only. and it was and it was great. the kids have been fighting this baby cold type thing, and they almost didnt go because of the sniffling and the runny noses and the little coughs, but they woke up seemingly normal- so they came. anyway- sunday was good. we did pick up cookie (my in-laws dog, they are out of town again). but that is ok. it was a good day. life seemed to be calming. :) i was happy.
that brings us to yesterday. monday. joe was leaving at about 4 to go to this seminar in dallas. he would get back wendesday night 9ish. i was sad. i hate when he leaves but oh well. jerra was slightly crabby and claysen was his happy self. they ate good breakfasts, played, argued and whined and played some more. they ate good lunches. joe came home for lunch, and then we took him back cuz he was taking the company car to dallas. i tuck in the kids. at about 2:45ish claysen exclaims he is stinky- i go upstairs to change him and while i am he looks soooo sad! and so i ask him- 'claysen, whats wrong?' he looks at me, his lip starts to quiver and he starts to sob,'my ear hurts!!!!!!!!!' i calm him down give him some tylenol and tell him to take a nap and that could helphis ear while thinking i need to make a dr.'s appointment. well, i get downstairs, call and make a 10 am appointment for the next morning, and make 1 phone call to get jerra a sitter, and by that point he is upstair sobbing. i go up and calm him down again. joe comes home and packs- claysen is all upset again, we calm him down, and then claysen falls alseep. joe leaves. i have a feeling it will be a long three days. and it has been a long two. jerra then is ok, but claysen get progressively worse. temperature, nose like a faucet and so miserable you want to cry for the poor boy. i am trying to snuggle and comfort him and jerra starts to get jealeous of all the attention that he is getting. i try to play with her, he is in so much pain i really cant leave his side without him falling apart. so i try and make due. claysen says he is hungery- and toast is a comfort food for him, i ask if he wants toast, jerra gets all excited cuz she loves toast and, suddenly all we are eating for dinner is toast and fruit. *sigh* so now its bed time, he wont even take mortin or tylenol, he half passes out i then tuck him in. jerra is being really a good girl- so i give her a treat and help her into bed and kiss her good night. claysen wakes up crying. i help him fall back to sleep. i need to make cupcakes for wednesday night, i make the batter, claysen wakes up. i put a batch in to cook, claysen wakes up. by 11 pm, he has woken up 4 times, each time i have to climb the stairs. not easy for me. i am far past aching at this point. i still have to shower and dry my hair. i pass out at midnight.
1:30 am- claysen fusses and falls back asleep.
2:00 am- he is sobbing, i go snuggle in bed with him, he is like a ginormous heating pad.
3:30 am- i crawl back to bed.
4:15 am- he fusses and falls back in to a restless sleep (i can hear him grunting and moaning)
5:00 am- sobbing. i bring him down to bed.
7:00 am- he wakes semi- happy cuz we are going to the dr. he lays there while i try to convince my eyelids they need to rise.
7:45 am- i win.
breakfast and getting ready, and we are out the door by 9:20. i drop jerra of at 9:40, and we are at the dr's office by 9:50.
He weighs 39 lbs and is 40 inches tall. he is only 2!!! wow- he is big and tall! we wait in the room, and we both start to fall asleep. the dr comes in- and for the record i love their dr- he is so nice and he really listens, and i like that. anyway, he looks in his right ear and says it looks good, he looks in his lef tear and the term i believed he used was "doozy". so we have a perscription and ear drops. poor boy! we leave, get jerra (THANKS AGAIN ALICIA!!!!), drop off his perscription, come home, can i convince claysen to eat 3 mini cupcakes (the one i baked last night). we get jerra settled and i crawl in bed to take a nap we sleep from 1ish- 2:45ish. feeling like i can survive, we snuggle until about 4 and i get jerra, i get claysen re-dressed, he had gotten so warm that i stripped him down, and we go to get his perscription. we come home, and jerra is BEGGING to play outside, and it is rather nice right now, so i convice claysen to stay outside with mommy while jerra plays for a bit and i clean the trunck- it looks a little better. anyway. i have a friend from church that sees me out there and decides to stop and talk. i dont get in and done with outside until about 5:30 whereas claysen has since crawled onto my bed and was whimpering for medicine. i give him his eardrops and proceed to figure out dinner. i find something he will eat- pasta and veggies- and start making while remember in have to make cookies still and decorate cupcakes. i start the cookies. i can decorate during naptime. i am making cookies, talking with jerra, doing the dishes, feeding claysen, and trying to remember hwa ti have forgotten. i havent remembered yet. i get 3 bites in him and some milk, and another cupcake and he is done. i give him medicine, and i lay him in my bed. his sheets were in the dryer still cuz when he woke up at 5 he has soaked through is pull-up because the only thing i have been able to get him to drink is gatorade. i had to wash them. anyway- they werent dry at dinner, so i hung out with jerra more, and he was half dead on my bed, and finaly was able to tuck them in. i made his bad, change him, got him ready and jerra bless her heart went potty by herself, washed up, got her pull up and jammies, and got all ready, came in with scriptures and said she was ready. what a great girl! i love her she is so awesome and good! :) we read, pray, call daddy to say night-night, and he doesnt answer (he told me he it was still on vibrate from the seminar) so we leave a message, which makes him start to cry cuz he wants his daddy, i again- calm him down and tuck him in, and before the door is shut- he is sleeping again. i go say personal prayers with jerra tuck her in, tell her thanks for being so great and head downstairs to start baking the cookies. i finish that and loading the dishwasher and picking up a bit (small bit) by 9:30. i make my list of things to do for tomorrow, still decorate those cupcakes, and sit down at 10. in the mean time, he has cried twice.
oi. i really was planning on taking it easy! but i guess not. i now need to find a sitter, i feel really bad taking them to church with me when he feels soooooooo bad, but, i need to be there, and i dont have a sitter. :/ there is always tomorrow tho, hopefully i can get one. anyway. that is why i havent posted about peru.
now i am going to climb those stairs yet again, and check on my babies, and then get to bed.
good night!

Hello and Goodbye

well my friends, i am here to check in briefly as i frantically try to get ready to go to Peru. I can only take my 2 carry-on's. Oi. this will be interesting. but we are staying in a nice hotel (by the internet pics) and they do have a laundry service, so it shouldnt be to bad, right? anyway what i am really working on is getting my house and family and food in order. Laura- joe's mom- is staying here with the kids, and she really knows how things go. but still i am all worried and paranoid cuz its not me ya know? oh well. i am really glad that i am able to go this time. :)
so that is me right now.
All in have to do by wednesday is:
1- finish laundry
2- vacuum upstairs
3- wash claysen's sheets
4- go food shopping
5- clean both bathrooms
6- wash my sheets on thursday
7- PACK
8- make sure all is ok at YW for while i am gone. i will miss 1 sunday and 1 wednesday.
9- take the dog in for her check up
10- update budget
11- get animal medicine
12- take library books back
13- check with Laura to see what she needs to help
that is all right now. i look at it and think- that isnt bad! but then i remember that i have limited energy. i have to be very careful what i do get done and when, otherwise, i am completely useless the next couple days. BUT i did find out from my dr. that i can take half a melatonin (1.5 mg) every night if i need to help me sleep! yeah! my dreams are crazy and they wake me up, and i just am restless. its sad. so i think i will be taking one tonight for sure so i can function tomorrow. and melatonin is not addictive, your body makes it, but i will still be cautious. no worries. anyway- there is my up date. and you might not here from me until i get back! then i will post pictures of Dia's house and Peru. unless i get my list done by tomorrow, then i will do dia's house on wednesday!
have a great week!