My boy

So Claysen got hurt today- gash in the head- blood on the carpet and he turn blue screaming hurt. it was awful. and i have to say that i am so grateful for and all loving Heavenly Father that watches out for me.



claysen cut his head open. not bad really- we just super glued it shut, and put a band-aide on it. yes super glue- all the nurses that we talked to said that since it wasn't super deep they would have done the same thing, except that it would have cost us a whole lot more. anyway- i knew that he couldn't die from it- but oi- i was so worried about him. i was so shaky and worried that i ate like a row and a half of chewy chips ahoy. yummy- but not healthy. i then discovered that i am an emotional eater. well, yes i have known it for awhile it just really hit me when joseph asked where all the cookies went and i had to point to my tummy. :/ oh well. i will just park farther away from the doors.

back to my drama. it was then when i was holding a paper towel to his head that i felt sooooo helpless and alone. i said a prayer and i was peaceful. just like magic. i was still apprihensive- but i knew everything would be ok. and he is fine. :)

afterwards i was planning on sitting on my couch and eating and my dearest newest friend came up my stairs. it was just what i needed. we talked she helped me relax. all was well. thank you Father.



so now it is monday- that was on friday.

it's raining. :\ yeah! i have to say that because in so many other places they are in a major draught and we are being blessed with a break from out drought.



joseph has gotten a lot done on our house. the mudroom is pretty good- all enclosed but like 1 spot and almost completely drywalled. :) he is an amazing man. i sometimes wonder how i am so blessed to have such a great guy. he does have his faults- he is forgetful, if it doesn't have anything to do with him then he can't remember it. drives me nuts. but for the most part he is so great. it makes me wonder and almost sad for some that don't have this. the love and support. i know they get love from others, but it's not the same. and i wonder how those you don't appriciate it can have it. i pray that i never take joseph for granted- i know i do and he does me, but it isn't ever for long. i am just so grateful that we have eachother.

well- i think that my daughter is demanding attention- i need to go keep her out of trouble. :) i truly am blessed by life. i am so grateful for my eternal family and the fact that i can be with them after we die, that my kids will be mine forever. how happy i am for that. i full if gratitiude for the love my Father in Heaven shows me daily, through my children, and family and friends. i guess i am all happy today and for no particular reason.... :)

Daddy Daughter Date

so i think i could cry.
my husband went on a date with the cutest girl i have ever seen. there was no jealousy, no contention. in fact i help this girl get ready. the only thing i felt was pure excitment and happiness and joy as i watched this couple go hand in hand to the movie, Surfs Up. her denim and orange skirt with matching jacket... it could not have looked better on anyone. my little angel has gone on her first daddy daughter date. :)
i have always remembered my dates with my dad. even if it was just icecream it was still great and it made me feel so special.
well, tonight joseph asked if she wanted to go on a date with daddy. and her little eyes started to sparkle. as i was doing her hair all pretty for daddy, she was soooo excited and she made him look at her and tell her how cute she was. and when we picked out her little outfit she went and made sure that he thought it was cute.
as we waved bye out the window i watched as she gripped her daddys hand and waved with her whole body and blew us kisses with every ounce of her body, and skipped off to the movies with her daddy in tow. i think that i have never been happier with my husband dating another person. :)

productivity

i sometimes wonder why i can have only one really productful busy day a week. all the other days i think... well, i don't know what i think. i guess i think well, i was good on tuesday i can realax today, well, that was 2 days ago. i guess it would be ok if i really kicked it into gear. or even just kinda kicked it into gear. why is motivation such a hard thing for some? i think my kids would be happier if i had more motivation. that means i would get up and play with them. and yet here i am still. hmmm. i think that i will get moving. maybe i will make a rule that i only can get online when my kids are taking a nap or having quiet time. oh and speaking of kids i think i might have found a way to potty train jerra. panties and plastic pants.... i might try it. i also heard panties and then the diaper. i think i am going to try this starting aug 1st. wish me luck. and i still don'tknow what colors to paint my kitchen and living room. i am having some serious issues with it.
well- i am going to make my phone calls. this is me starting to be busy- or putting off my dishes. :)

loves

family and a Friend

so.... this has been a very crazy time.

first- steven came on the 23rd to help with my house. he has been a really big help. i think joseph is feeling good about how things are going right now. so this is really good. i am really enjoying being able to spend time with my brother. he's such a great kid.

we then get this phone call from my mom sayin that my grandfather, Papa- my dad's dad. was in the hospital. he is 89 and it turns out that he has cancer and he really isn't doing well. he has now been in the hospital for about 2 weeks. but i have to say that he is one of the greatest men that have ever lived and he has definately led a very good and full life. i just pray that he isn't in pain.

and then on the 4th- steven and my love got windows and a door in. they are also planning on getting all the drywall up so that the 'mudder' can come and get the kitchen and pantry, livingroom, master bedroom and closet, and then the other downstairs bedroom all done. that way all that needs to be done is painting and the bathrooms. WAHOO!!!!!

so it has been very busy.

the kids are great- claysen is in the process of getting 3 teeth and the 4th is just very slow moving- but yeah, he is still super sweet and stuff. he went into nursery with jerra on suday. that was great. yes it's early but no one cared so it was great.

jerra is having a difficult time right now. she has been extra moody and tired and emotional i really don't understand what is going on. i feel bad, since she is on a short fuse it makes things really hard for me so i am not very patient with her either. i hate that. i am praying hard and i just need to keep trying and work really hard and pray really hard and things will improve. :)

OH!!! i also have a friend! she lives down the street and she is also renovating. i once read that sometimes it seems as though prayers fall as stones, and i have felt like that for so long. i prayed and prayed and prayed for a friends. and one almost rainey day, i met one. and that is when i realized that the Lord just wanted me to know patience and have faith because without either where would we be?
i have to say that my new friend, in the 2 weeks i have known her has lifted my spirits so much more. i now would be really sad if i were to ever have to leave daingerfield. i would be really sad insted of just kinda sad. but yes- to feel awakened like this, is great. so thank you Father, and thank you brin. :)