better

i am better now. it is so weird how you start to think that you can do it all on your own, and so then you take on more and more and more, and then you are at the brink of crumbling, you then realize, you DONT need to do it alone, like you think that you have to. cuz you arent alone, ever. why does it take some much for a person to remember? so sad.
oh well, i am better.
i got a new yorkie! did i tell you that! pictures will come later, after her bath and i do her hair. she really is sweet but oh so feisty!!!! she is one tuff girl! her name is Izzie, and she is about one and a half years old. she is sweet and she loves me. it is so cute that she follows me around the house. but i am also trying to house train her again. when her previous owner have her to us, she was originally house trained, but the Sadie joined the Air Force and couldnt take her to boot camp. so we got her, i have always dreamed of having a yorkie, she is great. anyway- it was a great shock going from a single girl owner, to a whole family with 2 kids, and 2 other cats, and another dog. she has had a hard time, but she is coming around. that was also what was being difficult last week. so yeah. anyway- that is my new dog.
it really is a zoo. but i really do love the chaos, the hecticness, and how there is so much going on with the family, the house, and then with just ourselves individually- it is great. exciting. i love it. things arent perfect, but they are really fabulous. :)
oh- funny thing.
jerra has a new passion. she asks about this over 3 times a day. are you ready for this? dishes. if she doesnt get to do dishes after EACH meal, she will cry. it is so cute, she makes sure that she will get it all clean as she rinses, and then she will give it to me to load in the dishwasher. it is so cute! i love it. when did she become such a big girl? but at the same time she is still my baby girl. like when we have thunder storms that are loud. she will be in her bed just crying and cover her ears. she even gets the courage to run outta bed and turn on her closet light. but by the time i get there are 2 in the morning, she is in bed, under all the blankets and covers with her hands over her ears singing twinkle twinkle little star and i am a child of God. so sweet. but i love that she needed me. that she knew i could make her feel better. i really hope that doesnt change. she is sweet. when i dont feel good, she will come and snuggle with me, and then she will even try to help take a drink- that is kinda scary, but soooo sweet. she is so gentle and thoughtful. i am lucky.
and the claysen, he is always so full energy! where does that come from! he is so thoughtful! wow. and yes he is still VERY obsessed with cars the movie. it is cute. i need "liheing queen stick" stickers. so cute. he has one everyday. and he is just so sweet about it. cuz when he gets one, or gets to watch the movie, or puts his shoes on, or his shirts, he will give me a kiss and say 'thanks soooooo mu mommy!" it is sweet and then he will give me another kiss. i love it.
well- there you have it. i am normal again, and so happy and grateful for what i got. the good and bad. :)