happy

ya know the excitement of flying? of seeing family? and being with those you miss so much. seeing the mountains you miss, the snow, the crisp air that never comes? and the sadness that comes when you don't feel the wet tongue licking your toes, or all the green pine trees aren't there, or the air that is so warm and thick, when you do see your mountains? why is it you are always missing something? it was at this point 2 weeks ago i realized that i needed to be more greatful that i could see these things and that i can miss everything. how many people leave home greatful that they never have to go back? that is sad to me. i will always miss my mom, and i will always miss the mountains, but- it is only because i love them and i guess i am selfish in the sense that i want them with me now. hmmmm..... maybe this also includes paitence. :)
so i was in UT for awhile and it was great. i spent time with my family, and i had many friends come to see me, which i just absolutely loved. i love that i have such great friends. even though we are lucky to see eachother once a year we still have a blast getting together and catching up while all the kids run around together. i love it.
it was sooooo cute to see my kids wanting to do things with my parents, grams and pa. every morning they would go stand my the back door so that they could ' go ouside pa?!' they couldn't wait! and it was so heartbreaking to see their faces fall when we had to tell them that he was at work and they would have to wait. and then we'd watch their face and you could see the wheels turning and then they decide, 'pa wook har?' and we agree and then the smile and say 'good' knowing that as soon as he is in the door, they will be at his knees waiting to go outside. very cute.
it is so awsome to see how my brothers are growing up to be such great men. that is so hard to say but it is true- dallin, i think that he has a right to be kinda picky with the girls- he is so awesome it will take a special type a girl to be with him. and steven- well, he has his mission so we don't need to worry about him or chris when it comes to girls- thank heaven!
the house is going to drive me nuts. every night i fall alseep worrying that it is too much for joseph yet knowing he can do it, just hoping he doesn't nearly kill himself in the process. it will happen i just hope sooner rather then later.
there are less then 10 weeks till christmas- yikes i have lots to do! i love the holidays!
i am happy. happy with life, happy with me- well for the most part i have been feeling rather lazy lately, but i am fixing that. happy. yeah!